Hey listen my friend, please don't do this, I appreciate that everything seems to be against you right now but believe me life is too previous!! We are only on this planet for a very short time in reality. You are loved and you have friends who will continue to support you.
I could go into a lot of detail but believe me when I see you are not alone in your despair. When I went through my divorce I was at my lowest but I concentrated on our kids and their wellbeing and focused on them instead of my own issues. I recently lost my nephew through suicide and to see it is has a massive impact on our family would be an understatement, this is the first Christmas without him.
Everyday there will be a reason to end it all but everyday there is a bigger reason to stay alive!
We are with you, stay strong and get through this tough time.
You are a lot stronger than you give yourself credit for and this is the last thing your wife would want if she was still here and you know it!
Tomorrow is just another day my friend and there will be better and brighter days ahead, trust me,